You know that sort of relationship when everything is just starting to fizzle out? It’s someone who you’ve grown up with, you’re the best of friends but recently things just haven’t felt right. There’s a hollow gap somewhere and you can’t quite put your finger on the specific issue.
Maybe that annoying habit your bezzie has is starting to grate on you, or maybe you’ve just changed so much since you were younger that things just aren’t the same. Perhaps you’ve just drifted apart because you like Batman and they prefer Superman.
That’s what it feels like to fall out with blogging.
OK, maybe it’s not exactly the same but bear with me on this one.
Blogging has been a hobby of mine for some time. From the early days of writing my thoughts on film and TV on Blogger, to sharing my life and other hobbies here as you see it now on WordPress. But for some time now, I’ve felt like we’ve been drifting apart.
I think we’ve had an argument, and neither one of us are to blame.
I feel like I’m mad because I’m no longer inspired by blogging. I’m frustrated because I have no ideas and I’m furious because try as I might, I can’t help but think that I’m not good enough.
I could churn out post after post about mundane crap that I wouldn’t be proud of, and I’d probably have more readers as a result of it. But I can’t bring myself to do that.
The pressure puts me off from opening up my WP dashboard and coming up with a new post. Even as I type this I have a headache, and I can’t decide whether it’s because I’m just tired in general or tired of this.
So why don’t I just give up?
I don’t want to, really. I want to keep trying and become friends with blogging again. The good news is that I have a few ideas for posts now, and although it feels a little forceful, I am trying to dedicate time in the evening to writing because it does become easier once you start. Hopefully, by pushing myself that bit more, me and my blog can be buddies again.
To fall out with blogging doesn’t just feel like a friend is slipping away, it feels like a part of you is. I may not be a big blogger, but blogging is something I consider myself to be good at and something I should be proud of.